Up to pussy's bow

I've just about had enough. No, I won't do anything stupid but I'm almost at breaking point. I'm tired, I'm sick, I'm mostly alone and scared shitless I'll end up a gaga old lady in a nasty home as there is no-one to look after me. No kids, no husband, no job. I keep trying to think about the fact I'm a damn sight better off than many other people - I have a home and some income - but some days it's means jack shit. I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of being a fat lump who is too tired to do much. I'm tired of being sick, I'm tired of being poor and I'm a damn sight tired of being alone. Yes, I have friends but feel deserted by many of them at present. If one more person had told me how sick they had been with the virus and that their cough lasted weeks and weeks, I swear I'd be done for murder. It's like the stupid things people say when your husband dies. Just help out or include me now and again. Being lonely sucks. Being poor sucks - means I can't install the green items that would save me money in the end - tanks, solar panels and such. Another financial crisis looks to be looming and here I am with very few marketable skills anymore - it's been 4 years since I worked in an office. Nobody really wants an over 50's women as an employee - I know. I figure I should just delete this post as it's a whinge but I'll wait a while and see if I push the post button...

Observation

Once in a while in life, there is someone you know and really don't want to be friends with them. They are very nice people and you can't put your finger on why you don't want to be friends with them but you don't. You just stay out of their way if you can and smile and nod if they do talk to you. I used to wonder if this made me a bad person, but well, it doesn't. Not everyone can like everyone.

There is a lady at the op-shop I work at on Fridays. I don't really like her so I just do my job and stay out of her way. I had to question a price with her today and she seemed very offended. Okay both the customer and I thought the price was a bit high but I was told in no uncertain terms that prices were as given and not to question them. Okay, I'm fine with that, I did ask away from the customer. I had to try not to laugh though as she spoke to me like a naughty 6 year old. I knew her social skills were poor but I didn't realise how poor! Then she tells me not to speak to the lady serving at the counter. The funny thing was that she told me as she was passing through the room without stopping! Hey lady, your problem not mine - I just have stop myself laughing out loud. Maybe I am a bad person after all...

Appropriate postings

I was thinking of doing a posting on the behaviour of some children and their parents in cafes but then I heard about the disaster in Christchurch , New Zealand, and what I was going to write seemed so small and petty. My heart goes out to those who have lost the ones they love in such awful circumstances. I am ashamed of our Prime Minister being so concerned by the death of just one Australian while almost 80 other loved people have died. The thought of dying alone and slowly under rubble is a heart breaking one. I wish I could have been there to hold each person's hand as they had slipped from life. But it was not to be. I would be no use in a rescue situation as I have no skills that would help. I can just hope those in Christchurch and around the world find some comfort with others and peace sometime in their hearts.

Assessing Medical information - some journals

There are many journals out there that have free content. Some are just too darn hard to understand but the summaries of the articles may be enough for the information you are seeking.

The Lancet : www.thelancet.com
One of the major medical journals in the world. Published since 1820.

British Medical Journal : www.bmj.com
Can register for some free content. They practice continuous publication - articles appear on bmj.com before being included in the print issue. Published since 1840.


Medical Journal of Australia : www.mja.com.au
The online archive has information from 1996. You have to register with the site and not all articles are available but it has some good clear information with an Australian focus. The journal itself has been published since 1914.

Libraries can obtain copies of articles for you - but be aware that inter-library loans can be expensive (they were about $20 when I left 2 years ago). The state libraries will have copies of a lot of journals and you can go into university libraries without actually being a student at the university - just don't try to borrow any books!

Any questions - just ask.

Assessing Medical information

Out there on the internet is an enormous volume of medical information. A large percentage of that is to put it crudely - crap. It is not only inaccurate but downright dangerous. Some of these sites take advantage of people who are desperate - the ones selling dreams of a better life if you only use their product or sell the $1000 pill that will cure your cancer. These are known as "wallet extractors".

With a little knowledge, you can avoid being caught out by the sharks out there.

So, first, be very wary. If it sounds too good to be true - it is. Be skeptical.

As a suggestion, start with Quackwatch.
quackwatch.org
Covers unproven and scientifically questionable claims of alternative health therapies, vitamin peddlers and other health frauds.

I would suggest you start with reading "25 ways to spot it" (Quackery that is) and "Ten ways to avoid being quacked".

If you do a Google search on a condition there will be thousands of hits. Don't just go to the first one and expect that to have the answers. It just means more people have visited the site than any other. Is the site associated with a specific medical practice or medical professional? Does it have lots of advertising on the page?

Stick with the government health sites for basic information .
Try HealthInsite healthinsite.gov.au/
or Better Health Channel www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au
these can lead off to more sites and you have a better chance of the information being reliable.

Now onto the more intensive information...

PubMed http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed
is a massive database - about 20 million citations - for biomedical literature from Medline, life science journals and online books. Citations may include links to full-text content from PubMed Central and publisher web sites. You may not be able to read the entire article you are interested in but usually the summary gives you the information you need.

One thing you need to may sure of when reading articles from journals is that the journal articles have been peer reviewed. This means that the article was sent to other experts in the field for examination before publication. This doesn't always mean the researchers who have written the article are telling the truth but it gives a better chance of them being found out before publication! The journal should state this somewhere on the site.

Always check who is publishing the journal. Many organisations publish they own journals - hospitals and such - but there are sneaky sods who are pushing their own agendas - be wary!

Next : a few journals...

Medical information and misinformation

When I left the Cancer Council about 2 years ago, I had intended to do a talk somewhere on assessing medical information but being basically a lazy sod, I never got around it to. So, I do intend to put some information up here. That's when I have done the research again...stay tuned.

Birthday thoughts

I have a birthday coming up.

A question for you all:
On my birthday I will be:
a) Flying to a private island and being looked after by young men young enough to be my grandsons,
b) Going out and raging till dawn then throwing up in the gutter on the way home,
c) Eating a huge dinner at an expensive restaurant,
d) Pretty much what I do most days.

I'm sure the answer is quite obvious.

I don't see the point in treating myself to a meal on my birthday : I can do that any day of the year. I don't see the point of buying myself something special for my birthday : I can that any day of the year. I don't have the money to do that anyway. I don't have a partner or children to treat me to expensive gifts or take me to lavish meals. I don't actually mind that much either. Unless I'm having a party, I don't expect others to remember the day.

The main point I'm trying to make is: its just another day.

I bought some new cake trays today. I might make some cake just to try them out. Or I may not. Whatever.